鬼節就到了 我也應時應景的配合下氣氛出來嚇嚇人



早上八點就被枕頭下面一個勁兒狂震動得手機驚醒 窗外劈里啪啦的雨聲和風聲再次動搖了我早起返工的決心

心一橫的把手機關了 繼續倒頭大睡 又一個被虛度了的早上 

再一醒來 以是十點多了 窗子外面天陰的叫人心情低落 看着樹枝上面搖搖欲墜的葉子們 更是使人萎靡不振 美國的冬天這次來的格外早

拖拖拉拉的趕在一點前出了門口 穿上厚厚的大衣 把自己包裹的只剩下兩只眼睛 眼前的世界也只剩下窄窄的一條 原來在你看不到周圍環境的條件下走路是如此的沒有安全感 不知道突然間會發生些什麽

我走的很快很快 像是在參加競走比賽一樣 把同路的每個人甩在腦后

自從看完了村上春樹寫的<挪威的森林>后 上班時間過的比烏龜爬還慢

我擡頭看着墻上的時鐘 看着秒針在一格一格的緩慢移動 聽着外面颱風似的呼嘯聲 腦袋完全放空

曾經總是嘲笑那些情緒化的人 一些不懂得如何掩飾自己情緒的人 爲什麽喜歡把自己的所有事情都拿出來與人分享 難道他們真的脆弱到不能自己承受任何挫折嗎？

後來我發現答案是肯定的 很多人的經歷確實使他們變得越發脆弱 他們經歷了不應該屬於那個年齡該承受的痛苦 

之前的想法太幼稚 不是把所有感情都藏起來的人才叫做堅強

不需要太過用腦的工作的確讓我有時間想很多東西 甜蜜的 還是失意的

不善於表達自己的我 什麽時候才能毫無顧忌的和別人分享自己的全部心情呢？

近來 室友們的關係緊張起來 似乎C不妥A室 A不爽B房的

室友晚上煞有介事般的關緊房門和我說她要開會給大家規範條例

不太喜歡參與人際關係麻煩事情的我也只好出於無奈的對浴缸裏面的頭髮假惺惺的抱怨了一番

和人相處時的做作還是免不了的 畢竟看着室友間相互討厭也不是件什麽高興的事情

不想插手太多 凡事要以和為貴

剛才不小心點到了朋友Xanga的鏈接 看返他之前的文章 想起我們大學曾經快樂得日子

其實上大學那陣也整日抱怨生活的枯燥學習的無聊 但是現在看來甚至會懷念那會兒的一切

此刻的我很想馬上回到北京 過很忙碌的生活

可是我知道如果真的發生啦 我興許也會情不自禁的回想當年在紐約鄉下那平靜得可以隨時放空的日子

就好像臨回國前的日子總能使人興奮 其實真正回去了 不也大多數時間都在家裏窩着

人生真的就是個圍城 就像錢鐘書寫的那樣 鄉下人嚮往城市的繁華和富有 可城市人卻多渴望過上田間安逸的生活

不敢說其他人 至少我每天都在這城門口來回的晃悠着 不知道該何去何從

總覺得別人的比自己的好 哪會意識到其實自己才是真正檢到寳的那個

面對現實 自己始終是俗人一個 七情六慾一個不少

希望覺醒的還不是太晚 珍惜自己擁有的 對別人要做到寵辱不驚 視爲浮雲朵朵 哈。。

今天過得好開心啊,

同panda和hermis提前慶祝了生日..

收獲多多.

滿載著大包小包和幸福快樂回到stony的我,

坐在暖暖的房間裏甜美的回憶著..

就像現在一樣..

打著這篇xanga,

希望可以和大家一同分享我的快樂.

 

Trip in New York City... *Two Days Right After Finals Before We Leave US*

after one week fought with finals, me and daiji had two days relaxed n prepared our luggages therefore we could leave new york on 25th...those two days went fast but had lots of fun...went to soho, rochefeller center n st. mark with jeffrey and stephy...also, watched king kong at stony together.. (of course at dorm becoz we had a BT king...) i love this movie if the ending could be better =) at night of 24th, we finally done packed and got ready to leave and start our winter vocation. specially thanks liang here for driving us to JFK in the early morning on your christmas day...

Trip in Hong Kong... *Heaven of Food and Shopping*

been crazy on shopping and eating.. YEAH!! that's what i did the most in hong kong..

really had spent great five days in hong kong..it is so blissful and wonderful being with my daiji there!! thanks for staying with me & be a good guider everyday. i'll remember every single moment we were ever together and keep those memories which just belong daili n daiji forever...<333

 Trip in Cambodia... *Orientation to Phnom Penh*

after a few days visiting in hong kong, finally, on the last day of the year 2005 i met up my family in phnom penh the capital city of kindom of cambodia...such a long time i didn't see my dad since the last summer in beijing...missed him much & all food mom ever made to me...yummy yummy...

the days in phnom penh are impressive and different..practically speaking, cambodia has one season to me even though there are four seasons actually..it is HOT HOT no doubt, each day like 33 C degree...but i can wear skirt in the winter, how it is different with the beijing winter. the first time i could wear summer clothes to celebrate new year , so cool...

i am living in chinese embassy with parents, not that boring as what i'v expected before i came, and the most funny thing is my dad brought me to sing K with mom at their "big meeting room" but the songs are pretty new which all brought by my mom from beijing in this summer, haha...such a good place to sing K , i can say it is even better than the place  we sing K at new york. >.<' but a little bit weird to sing songs with perents...

went to a lot of places with my perents but unluckily their names are weird and hard to spell and read, the only a few words i can remember now are wat phnom & tonle sap river..sigh...the omnipresent 'moto' is the most common and fastest form of public transportation but are certainly not the safest. they are more prone to accidents and robberies than cars. but it just costs from 1000R-4000R (1USD=4000R) for a trip in town.

there is a big market called russian market (phsar toul tom poung) nearby where i live..such a big place to shop. it has a good selection of silver, jewels, silks and all kinds of clothes. seriously, you can find out abercrombie, polo, and almost all brands of US..if you have time and willing to spend your time in such crowded and bad smelly place, then u would get the clothes with the same quality but maybe only at one tenth price. hehe..mom bought me a gap top which is only 1 dollar..anyway, it is good for matching clothes...dad told me all clothes here are stolen by the workers who work for those US company, they are not satisfied their wages while they have no ability to raise it therefore they steal clothes from the factory then take them to sell at here for earning extra money. that's why each styles have only one size and one color, so don't have much request!! cheap is the most important!!! i bought a traditional asian top shirt for my boss ms. beverly i know she will like it..haha..

i am pretty enjoy the time in cambodia and i am so missing my dabaobeier daiji <3<3

Trip in Cambodia... *Nearby Destination: Siem Reap Angkor*

have been spending three says in Angkor with my parents since thursday, this trip was pretty relax and free... all visiting places, trip routes and food are chosen by ourselves. i love this kind of trip. we left home on thursday morning about 7 am because my dad was afraid of traffic jam, then after about five hours driving we reached our destination: Siem Reap Angkor. phnom penh is cambodia's capital city but the provincial town of siem reap, the gateway to temples of angkor, is the country's primary tourist destination. so definitely, i must go there to take a look.

just heard this news a few days before that angkor is one of the candidates to compete the "new seven world miracles" now, i predict it can win because it is really a miracle. all temple ruins of angkor date from the 9th-13th century AD Khmer Empire, and rank amongst the world's most magnificent architectural wonders.

all nights in siem reap, after had dinner at some chinese restaurants we went to "pub street" to spend more relax iation time. if u walk at this street i am sure u wouldn't recognize you were in cambodia because each bars here are stylish and fashion... also, drinking beers & chat with parents in bar are really a new feeling to me, but interesting...we talked about all funny stories ever happened on us or other people and making fun with each other...and our plans in year 2006... due to the bird flu disease, mom won't take me to vietnam and thailand this time but instead they promised to bring me there in the next winter, that means i can come to visit them again!!! also, HK again!!!( oops..we need to start saving money soon daiji..) haha... i think i will miss these happy family time when i am back to new york...

er.. oh yeah..dad got a ticket at the first day there since he didn't see a no left-turn sign... but the fine is much more cheaper than new york which is only $5. actually, dad said the police always don't follow rules to charge people but instead they ask money for their own purpose at any amount. so this time we were lucky for charging only five dollars... being a cop is a good job in cambodia can earn money so quickly and easily.

now.. i am back at home and missing my dabaobeier again...

Trip in Cambodia... *Orientation to Some Points of Interest: Central Market, Royal Palace and "Silver Pagoda", Independence Monument*

if say... visit Siem Reap Angkor is a must in cambodia, then to visit more points of interest in phnom penh just depend on people's interest and time... luckily, we have location and transportation adventages, so, definitely, we visited almost all famous places in phnom penh. shuang... since daddy needs to work at weekdays therefore the most things i did was went shopping with mom during monday through friday, the girls here are short and super skinny by which it brings me some trouble to find a proper size. (er..maybe i am too fat >.<') regarding weekend...of course went to some little farther places to take a tour. time goes really fast, only six days left before go back to school. sigh...

actually, went to visit those places are not my original purpose although they are worthy to take a look... but instead...can stay with mom and dad to spare these happy family time is what i most favored. really cherish the time we can stay together. i know we won't have this kind of chance often in the future no matter due to daddy's job or my academic goal. anyway, enjoy now!!!

need to start adjusting mind back on school things... a brand new and busy semester is coming up, work harder and achieve 4.0 GPA again!!!

Trip in Cambodia... *Leisure Time of My Last Week in Phnom Penh*

because only a few days left... so i need to save time and try my best to squeeze more activities into a single day. such as today... a tired but really fun day. nan jiejie came back from canada so me and mom dated with her in a bar this afternoon for chatting and chatting, u know..women always like doing this regardless how old they are! sigh... nan jiejie showed us lots of pics which she'v taken in canada, and talked her fashion design study experiences there. wow.. i begin to be interested in fashion industry, sounds really cool... er.. i couldn't control myself  if being placed at front of brownie and ice-cream so absolutely today is not an exception. i gained like two pounds today.. really lack of ability of self-control.

after, we went to so many stylish stores which are owned by some western people. i love the one called Ambre, operated by two french, they sell the clothes by their own design. the store is located in a narrow street, so hard to find but famous.. lots of forigners who work for whatever some international organizations or hospitals always come to this store for choosing their formal clothes. the store is a villa style from outside look... really elegant and beatiful inside.. and the clothes... each styles have only one so if u like them..designers will help you to change the size in order to fit your body perfectly at once.

at night, my family and nan jiejie couple went to a korean restaurant for dinner, well, the price is much cheaper than new york. the waitresses as well as their dancers they gave us some traditional korean dancing show when we were eating, so interesting.

the feeling of not going back US becomes stronger and stronger... but i am still missing my dabaobeier as always. <3<3<3

Bye-bye Cambodia... I Love U!!!